The Wait is taking its Toll

I would like to consider myself emotionally strong and grounded and confident but today wasn't that day. Well, Adam may think "emotionally strong" isn't any day, LOL. But that's ok. I've had my fair share of doubts, welled up tears, and moments I just wanted to lay my head down and sob. I'm lucky to have so many friends checking in on me and asking how I'm doing. Without them, I would be wreck ... I just might be curled up in my pajamas fighting the day. I truly believe God allows me to feel sad and He's kindly watching. I talk to him softly in my head, wondering when our prayers will be answered. I know it's in His time but I also know my heart can't take much more. We debate whether to travel and just spend time with Maxwell and Anita and then we contemplate the reality of this and we know the possible time this could really take. So, to say my brain is "full" ... well, that might be an understatement. To say "I'm emotionally drained" ... "yes, for sure!" I want to be giddy, I want to be calm again, I want to be reassured that by us staying here (in the States, that this is the correct decision.) I guess it's just all taking its toll.
Our in country facilitator is waiting for an email from the US Embassy stating he can drop of the kids passports. Once the Embassy has the passports, this should be a positive sign. They will need the passports in order to insert the Visa's. The Visa's are what we are waiting on in order to travel! Thus, I pray the US Embassy will want the kids passports on Monday and we will hear that we are going to granted Visa's on Friday. We can pray for specifics right? Well God, I'm here, waiting for your timing ... I'm just asking for your timing to be next week!